Tommy Sotomayor - Why Do I Have To Watch This Man? BECAUSE!!!

A while back, I stumbled across a YouTube page for a nice looking guy name Tommy Sotomayor.  He essentially creates videos discussing topics that hold his interest for various reasons.  I've seen people describe him from every angle possible.  And most of those were not too positive.  However, after watching quite a few of his videos, I have become addicted to his whit and his sarcasm, but most especially to his truth.

He slams the shit out of people.  He is harsh.  He is condescending.  He holds back nothing.  And guess what?  He doesn't really lie.  But the biggest point he explains over and over is that these are his viewpoints.  So I'm trying to figure out why people are so upset.  And I think I nailed it.  LOL.

White people get really pissed off when he's slamming the actions of certain white people.  But they are applauding him when he puts certain black people's actions down.  Then he flips the script and puts down the actions of certain black people and vice versa.  People are somewhat ridiculous.  He doesn't put down everyone.  He is very specific to the type of person that he is casting judgement on.

I guess my problem with those people is why are you sitting there watching someone disparage you on purpose.  If you think his opinions are fabricated, why are you giving them your attention?  I know why.  Because you know deep down that at least part of what he is saying describes the things about yourself that you know are full of shit.  It's even more relevant because you're not reading it.....oh no.  He's facing you on your monitor and saying it to your face.  LOL

Here's a link to just a few of Mr. Sotomayor's videos.  Enjoy!!!!  And be nice to him in his comments section.
Tommy Sotomayor TV

My Pandora Music Playlist Issues

Apparently I suck big cookies when it comes to making a playlist.  I made an 80's play list on Pandora and I was very strict for the first few days.  Then the early 90's started sneaking into my songs........but I couldn't remember what year some songs were published.  So they got the thumbs up.  Now I'm getting hit with Blurred Lines by Robin Thicke.  (thumbs down)

I don't know how to fix this.

I had started one of just soft romantic music.  I loved so many of the songs.....all slow and sexy.  I thought this would be great for romantic evenings with my husband.  Until one night we turned the playlist on.....every other song was about a broken heart or someone cheating.  Not really a highlight to be kissing my husband when any Shirley Murdock song comes on.....LOL.

So I started doing the thumbs down on lots of slow jams.  I felt like I was discovering this unknown fact in the world of slow music......most of it is NOT truly romantic.  UGH.  Now what?  And while some of her songs are great.....I can't fathom making love to Barbra Streisand music.  I need some Sade or Maxwell.

Bottom line is I have no discipline.  I hate to click the thumbs down song on any song I really like no matter what playlist it pops into.  Will my goal for music playlists ever be met?  Probably not.  Oh well.  lol

Why Am I So Hard Headed?

Wait!  What is that title?  I'm not hard headed.  Really.  LOL (lightening bolt!!!!  DUCK!)

I've been called stubborn, hard headed and unable to let go of things.  Hhmmmm, it might be true.  But guess what?  That's just me.  And probably every other person in the world.  It's always been a silly comment to me.  I have never met one single person that just automatically goes with the flow of others and never resists anything ever.

Here's another one.  "You always want everything you're own way."  Well.....yeah...duh!  Tell me a person who always wants it to be someone else's way.......go ahead, I'll wait.

foot tapping.....

foot tapping.....

I'm waiting.

Exactly.  I have always wanted what I want and whenever the hell I've wanted it.  LOL.  That's not likely to change.  The problem is you have to learn to take turns.  I don't even have any problem with that.  My mother in law had issues with that.  But I've learned not to worry about her anymore.  She's never learned about taking turns.  Actually, she's one of those people that wants her everything right now....all the time.  HAHAHAHAHA.

Human nature is to want and need and feel what we do right now.  There's nothing wrong with that at all.  It's only a question of learning not to voice it and to truly understand that we just can't have our every wish fulfilled asap.  You can't voice it because then you sound like a spoiled, bratty adult.  And that's never a good way to come across to others.  We will be very hard headed in avoiding you at all costs.

Different Types of Women

What type of woman are you?

Are you active?  Are you a mom?  Are you a volunteer type?  Are you all business?  Are you an educator?  Are you a swinging single for lifer?  Are you monogamous?  Are you the 'other' woman?  Are you sexy?  Are you a sports nut?  Are you girlie?  Are you a tom boy?

I think most of us are all of those and much more.  We like to say the media and society label us, but I think we do this too each other.  I really enjoy being able to wear so many hats.  I love the woman I've become and can't wait to see what my daughters become.  It's also fun to watch friends I've grown up with change and grow over the years.

It's never to late to try on a new hat or even get rid of one that doesn't truly fit who you are now.  The biggest consideration is that you don't label the women around you and just let them be all the women they want to be.  It's amazing how many hats I can wear at one time now.  Maybe that's the truest part of being a mature woman........how many hats you wear well at one time?  LOL.

I love being a woman.  (not that there's another option for me anyway.)

Keeping a Secret

Man Oh Man......I am such a gossiper.  An acquaintance asked me to keep a secret, but it's so juicy I immediately spilled the beans to my own personal secret keeper, my husband.  LOL, he's like a vault.  I'm like the door of the vault.....opening at every chance.  lol.

But most of the secrets I have trouble keeping are landing in one of two categories:  happy news or helpful news.  Happy news makes people smile and I love to watch people get happy.  Helpful news can easily make someone's life more simple and clear.  Both are good reasons to share a secret, I guess.  NOT.  lol.

I have found that the best way to share a secret without getting busted is to share it with someone that has no contact or knowledge of the person that originally gave me the secret.  LOL.  For the most part it works, unless you have a party or something and invite them both.  See how far you have to go when you gossip?  Trying to keep the illusion of trust among my peers can be frustrating.....LOL.

One Year of Goals

One year ago today, I joined a group of really special ladies to help support each other in our goals of weight loss and being healthy.  We wrote down on paper a list of our goals to be reached within the next year.  My list was typical of me.....housework, getting my family more organized, spending more time with kids actually doing things, becoming a better cook, etc.  Here's the list of goals I accomplished.

1. Huh?

Yup, that's right.  I didn't get one single goal completed.  In a freaking year?  Wow.....pretty pitiful, right?  Well, yeah it is.  But I have a reason.  None of those are real goals for me.  I think I have this goal to be Carol Brady but I'm more of a Peggy Bundy.  So today I decided to concentrate on renewing my list to obtainable goals with deadlines.  It'll be a boring day today at work, so I can work and still have my notebook sitting next to me thinking and thinking on how to make it happen.

So goal #1 is to just GET HEALTHY.  What's that mean?  What should I buy?  That means I need to take care of me.  I'm one of the leaders in my home as the parent.....I need to do this.  It means eating better but not going crazy with it.  It means treating my skin better.  It means working out a little and easing into a lot.  It means NOT doing a lot of crazy things like getting more excited that my son when I hear the ice cream truck.  It means taking my vitamins.  It means eating breakfast every day.

I'm actually texting with my hubby right now about helping me get up in the mornings.  I'm a morning person once I get my butt outta the dang bed.  I've come to understand that's one of my major errors every day.  On the days when I get up early, my intent for the day being a healthy one stays with me.  It seems that if I get myself into a healthy pattern, lots of other things will fall into place with that.  Hmmmmm.

Godzilla

Yes, Godzilla is alive.  Well, Netflix brought him back to life for my 6 year old son, Jayden.  As I'm typing this, he's watching Godzilla's Revenge.  He said he plans to watch the Godzilla cartoons tomorrow.  I grew up loving all the monster movies that came on our local (I think it was local) TV station.  Channel 48 had Creature Double Feature every Saturday afternoon.  It was great on rainy days when it's too icky outside to play kickball.

I personally loved the little twins from Mothra's island, the creature from the black lagoon that I never figured out what he was supposed to be, all Alfred Hitchcock's birds, and a zillion others.  These were fabulous movies for me.  My mind and heart are too sensitive for Texas Chainsaw Massacre.  I cry, I have nightmares and genuinely freak myself out.  My Jayden is the exact same way.

And for that reason, I need to stop typing and get back to Godzilla.  I don't want him breathing down my neck......fire breathing dragon might burn the back of my hair off right before we go on vacation....can't have that.  LOL

See Ya L8r Allig8or

Physical Fitness? Hmmmm. Mental Fitness 1st

I'm definitely one of those people that struggles with my wait issues.  I can't wait to eat.  I can't wait to drink.  I can't wait to find the newest excuse not to workout.  I need to start my workout program on a Sunday, January 1 of the new year.  Tuesday's or Thursday's just won't do.  I have tons and loads of excuses.

I don't have the right type of clothing.  I need new sneakers.  My socks don't match.  I don't have a headband and sweat could drip right into my eye.  My period is due, my period is here, my period just left. I'll start in the spring to get ready for summer.  I'll start in the autumn so I'll be good for spring.  I can't start around the holidays.....oh wait, I'll miss out on all that good food.

The mental struggle is me finding ways to not do what should be most important - healthy living.  I'm really hoping that some upcoming projects I'm getting involved in will help me use these things I really need/want to do as a way to keep some of my focus on myself.  I want to workout.  I want to eat right.  I want to meditate.  I want to be on a routine.

Step #1 - I set my alarm clock just now for 5am tomorrow morning.  It's not a Sunday.  It's not January.  It's not the beginning of anything.  Oh wait......maybe there's a phat me waiting for the fat me to get the hell out of the way.  LOL.

G'Night My Loves.....MUAH!

Before & After Pictures - They Might Be Fake? What? Really?

I saw this story about Before and After Pictures in the fitness industry being bogus. Shocking, right? NOT!

Obviously I'm not bashing the fitness industry as a whole, there are lots of companies and people that really do care. I even have friends that sell these products. But I never see that much in the way of "hey, just eat these normal every day things from your local farmers market" or "do these exercises where you need no equipment or DVDs" ......it's always buy this shake, this vitamin, this supplement, this DVD, this set of weights, this book.

See? All this craziness in the fitness world.....this is why I'm so iffy on purchasing anything. I haven't personally met one person that has stuck with a weight loss program that I have seen for sale and never gained the weight back. I know it's an ongoing battle and struggle. I get that. I'm simply refusing to spend money on it anymore. I'm only losing weight in my wallet, not my big butt. I wish everyone the best and I'm not telling anyone else what to do......we all need support with this battle.

 But I need to do what I need for myself. This is about me and my battle, not the fitness industry and their wanting my money. Do they really care if I lose weight or if I just buy the newest thing?  No, what I need is a support system or a buddy.  A team of people that will do this on a daily basis with me and be serious about it every day.  A buddy that will let me push them as they are pushing me too.  Anyone want to apply for that job?  LOL.

I will continue to do the things I have found that work for me......I'm not buying anything else. No other products. I need to stick with all the things I have already bought and paid for that are still in wrappers or buried under dust. The biggest thing is just taking the time. Maybe the best thing I could purchase is an hour of my own time each day. ???? Hmmmmmm, why did that just sound like my own Ah Ha moment?

The Secret Crush(es)

As a very married woman, it's so fun to have a crush on someone that's not my husband. And I don't mean the normal Channing Tatum variety. LOL. There are so many hot guys I get to see and interact with that are all a little bit special to me.

The Fed Ex guy that delivers to my job. He's not the most attractive guy, but every single time he comes in, he let's me know he thinks I'm beautiful. He compliments my clothing, my hair, my eyes. He never misses an opportunity to give me some sort of compliment.

The meter reader that comes in my house to read the meter smells like a dream. It doesn't matter what time he comes, the man smells like he just stepped out of the shower and is heading out for a night on the town.

The twitter account that sends all the romantic and sweet tweets. I don't know if it's a guy or not but in my head those are all direct messages to me. LOL.

It's so much fun to have these little crushes and still totally be hot for my husband. It's great to have a solid relationship where fun is part of daily life. There are a few more crushes, but a girl gets to keep some things to herself.

My Own Image

If you’ve bothered to see my profile, you may have seen what I look like. It’s trying to be realistic with everything, especially things about myself. I tend to shop for compliments from others for various reasons. I think where I believe my reflection is ok, it should be better than ok. Maybe that’s why I don’t try harder to lose the weight, keep my hair done, etc. If all that was done and I was still only ok.....where do I move from here?

It’s really hard to be 42. I’m having a tough time accepting that I will never get my old body back. I’ve had children, I’ve eaten way too many cupcakes and don’t come from a family with the best physical appearances hanging from our branches. I’ve got things going on inside me that don’t make sense. Hot flashes.....doctor says I’m not even close to menopause. Eczema on my feet......not much can be done. Hair thinning out on my head but starting anew on my chin......just part of aging.

Maybe the best we can do is to find out who we want to be and strive for it. But to know in our heart of hearts, it’s still only going to take us so far. We should have enjoyed our youth more. LOL, I think I enjoyed mine a little too much since I don’t remember a whole heck of a lot. Here’s my advice to myself.......

I really do need to find a way to improve who I am and what I am; while accepting that I am what I am until then.